Trying everything

[bigflip]

I'm Keith
I'm trying to find where to go, what to do, and where to start. I have been on some form of mental drug since the 1990's. Around 2000 I was told that I was bipolar. I take lamictal and wellbutrin (don't know If I spelled those correctly). I need help in getting some organization in my life. I have a terrible work history, have no relationship, no friends and of late have found very few things that interest me. I’m not sure what else to say. On 4/8 I have an appointment with a nurse practitioner to check on my meds. I have never been to this person. I have an understanding that I believe to be rooted in fantasy of how therapy is to go. I have had several counselors and in most cases I was looking for more guidance then what I received. The last person I went to (he was a doc of psychology) he never offered any insight or even thoughts on my issues. I would set in the office and take notes when I look back over those I can’t believe I stayed with him that long. If anyone has any thoughts or ideas I would like to hear about those.

[BrainDrain43]

Hi Keith,

I've been there too. In the 90's I was diagnosed with ADD and was put on all kinds of meds such as paxil and wellbutrin and dexidrine. Dexidrine was the only thing that 'thinned the fog' for a short time but I had to discontinue it because of complications with my blood pressure. I've sought counseling from many therapists and docs but all they ever had to offer was more medicine.

Over the years, I've come to the conclusion that everyone is dealing with altered brain chemistry to some degree. And I've worked in a variety of fields including construction and mental health and computer science.


I'm still looking for a magic cure or perhaps a transformational healing and I figure I'll be looking for it on my death bed. On the way, I've found a couple of things in my life about which I have been able to ignite considerable passion. One of those things is the raising and educating of my children. Another is the accelerated worsening condition of the world around us. Concentrating on these things doesn't resolve the internal frustratiions but does provide formidable and contructive distraction.

Perhaps reaching out to and taking interest in the world outside of yourself might grant you a reprieve from your turmoil.

[bigflip]

Thanks,

I have gotten involved with a local museum as a docent. In the past I have kept my plate full...taking classes, working with nonprofits, doing everything to keep my mind full. The problem is that there comes a time that it begins to end and being busy doesn't always work. If anyone has any ideas of books that have been helpful to them could you please post them.

Thanks again.
Keith