My story

[ilovemycats]

I am a 25 year old female. I was diagnosed with O.C.D. about fourteen years ago. My diagnosis has always seemed ironic to me because the event that spawned my diagnosis was actually a panic attack. It took several, horrible years for my doctors to finally diagnose me with panic disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. Then during college, I was diagnosed with major depression. I tell people that I have the deadly three :D. This is my way of shedding some humor over my situation. Over the years, I have taken just about every medication that you can.... Paxil, Zoloft, Effexor XR, Xanax, Klonopin, and more... About two months ago, I switched from Effexor XR to Zoloft... again.... because I am pregnant with my first child (19 weeks tomorrow). In the last year or so I have experienced less panic disorder and generalized anxiety disorder and have become agoraphobic. As a side note, I do not experience O.C.D. or depression symtoms 95% of the time. My real problem is my agoraphobia. It has gotten so bad that I can't work or leave the house. I can't even make it to my prenatal appointments. I am not supposed to take Xanax because of my pregnancy, but I do so I can leave the house once-and-awhile. I just monitor my intake. And yes, my doctors know. Now, I'm fighting many different emotions and physical reactions. I either feel anxious or I feel loopy and unable to concentrate (because of the Xanax). In both situations, I do not want to leave the house. I feel trapped by my own mind and body. My husband is so tired about everything that he has become unsympathetic and somewhat resentful towards me. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow afternoon. I'm going to ask if I can switch medications... that is if I make it to my appointment:(.

[mscat]

Hi there,
I know it must be so hard for you right now . However, right now, with the pregnancy your first priority is to keep yourself physically healthy as possible for the baby that is growing inside of you. Could someone take you to your appointment? Give you a helping hand? This is extremely vital. Please do not jepardize your unborn baby 's health . Do everything in your power to make these prenantal appointments. These are so important to the health of your child.
When your baby is born there will even more appointments. I understand how difficult this is for you!
This is what happend to me! I got pregnant at 93lbs, and unmarried. I had a Eating Disorder. I was scared out of my mind! I made an appoinment for an abortion. However, knew i could not do that. I decided to quit the ED in order to have a healthy baby. It was horrible for me. However, a right thing to do. I started spotting a month later, I thought i lost the baby. I had to stop cycling. i did not lose the baby. I gained 65lbs. Had a beautiful, healthy baby boy.
You see, Once you become pregnant you start making decisions for the unborn baby right than and there that is going to effect the outcome for the rest of the baby's life... Do not gamble on your child's health. Take care of yourself and make those appointments. no matter how hard it is to do.