medchemist
03-16-2009, 07:41 PM
Everybody tells me I should just be happy and that my life is perfect but I still feel rotten. I just want to drink all the time but I don't, I just want to get high all the time but I don't, I have been diagnosed bipolar, ADHD, with anxiety disorder, and with major depression. They've tried many different meds on me, none work, I feel horrible when I take them. I just want to be normal but know that I can't. I don't even know who I am anymore without some chemical substance coursing through my veins, legal or illegal. Been sober now for over 1.5 years, hasn't helped... horrible to live feeling like the floor is going to crash in at any second.