concrete_angel
05-06-2009, 12:08 PM
I really feel the effects of the anxiety... I feel so much on edge that I find my self wanting to hurt my self.. The thoughts of driving my car into traffic or just taking the whole medical cabinet. I know that they will pass. But for me, when I get this way.. I start to blank out.. It's when I know that I'm in a panic that I have the urge to run.. Run as far away from things as possible. The need to hide and never come out..But this is different.. It's like a anger.. A deep anger and I can't stop these thought.
The feeling of hurting my self to the point of death has been happening to me for about 4 months this now. I'm able to control the anxiety mostly on a daily basic, but it is when I get to the point that I'm at right now that scare me the most.
I fear that if I do blank out, then what will happen to me and others. I get some time so much on edge, like I have been the last 22 hours that I want to throw stuff also.. It's like my mind is going crazy and I need some thing to release my anxiety.
I have very few friends that are there for me in my time of need and I find that I don't want to put more on my dear husband then I should. He is my every thing... I just wonder how much can a man take... How much can a man deal with seeing some one so depressed, anxious and etc??? Tell me, for I would love to know. I only have my husband to give me the support I need... I love him so much and don't want to put more on him then he can bear. CA
The feeling of hurting my self to the point of death has been happening to me for about 4 months this now. I'm able to control the anxiety mostly on a daily basic, but it is when I get to the point that I'm at right now that scare me the most.
I fear that if I do blank out, then what will happen to me and others. I get some time so much on edge, like I have been the last 22 hours that I want to throw stuff also.. It's like my mind is going crazy and I need some thing to release my anxiety.
I have very few friends that are there for me in my time of need and I find that I don't want to put more on my dear husband then I should. He is my every thing... I just wonder how much can a man take... How much can a man deal with seeing some one so depressed, anxious and etc??? Tell me, for I would love to know. I only have my husband to give me the support I need... I love him so much and don't want to put more on him then he can bear. CA