mscat
10-21-2009, 12:50 PM
I talked to the therapist about what has been happening in public places to me.... How the loud noises have been intensifing, and how everything starts spinning around , how the sounds triple in my ears , the rush into me, that i feel I can;t even breath, that I froze in the store, and thankfuly my brother had been with me, and he took over the paper work , however the other time I had to call my family and my niece came down to the medical clinic to sit with my son , I went to my car and sufferend a painc attack, it was brutal, I culd not catch my breath .... Told the therapsit how it happened twice in one week, how i am not able to drive anymore, which sucks.
How I am now in my home , having to keep my place dimly lit, and very quiet all the time in order to function. Well he mentioned I was leaning towards argraphphobia, :( It actually is something I've written in here before, it has just become worse , and presented itself more on the outside now >
The therapist had me wait , he talked to the psych Dr. about me , for a min. and than I went in, an unscheduled appointment. It was by far the most uncomfortable appointment by far. I have seen this Psych Dr. for years , it was not him, it was the subject matter.
the Dr. increased the Lexapro Dose , and and a highly personal question that I absolutely did not ever want to admit, or talk about. He casually asks me do you hear voices or see things? I am not going to tell him.... than he says you do not have to tell me what you see or hear but I need to know , so I had to answer. Long story short , I have been hearing very bad things ... horrible , ugly words. He asks is it coming from me or somewhere else, I said I don't know, and this is the truth.
Now he gives me more medication . fucking wonderful. I looked it up, an antipsychotic. That's what I fucking get for being truthful. Pissess me off .
Pissess me off cause I do not want to take meds like that. already on too many meds already. I tell the truth , and then get placed on more meds. it sucks.
How I am now in my home , having to keep my place dimly lit, and very quiet all the time in order to function. Well he mentioned I was leaning towards argraphphobia, :( It actually is something I've written in here before, it has just become worse , and presented itself more on the outside now >
The therapist had me wait , he talked to the psych Dr. about me , for a min. and than I went in, an unscheduled appointment. It was by far the most uncomfortable appointment by far. I have seen this Psych Dr. for years , it was not him, it was the subject matter.
the Dr. increased the Lexapro Dose , and and a highly personal question that I absolutely did not ever want to admit, or talk about. He casually asks me do you hear voices or see things? I am not going to tell him.... than he says you do not have to tell me what you see or hear but I need to know , so I had to answer. Long story short , I have been hearing very bad things ... horrible , ugly words. He asks is it coming from me or somewhere else, I said I don't know, and this is the truth.
Now he gives me more medication . fucking wonderful. I looked it up, an antipsychotic. That's what I fucking get for being truthful. Pissess me off .
Pissess me off cause I do not want to take meds like that. already on too many meds already. I tell the truth , and then get placed on more meds. it sucks.