my sis.

[SweetSue]

Well today it should of been my sis's 38 th birthday. She died nearly 18 years ago. She was just 20. Still a kid, still had so much life to explore. She took her own life, I can understand her reasons, been there myself and often visit the place in my mind and heart that she was at. She didnt give up on life, she didnt take the easy way out, it was her solution to finding peace.

I just miss her, she was my shadow for so long, helped me through so much. Held my hand, comforted me, understood.

We had our own language, our own codes. A safety in our little lifes that wasnt available. Sis was so strong, much stronger than I ever was, often took the punishment that should have been mine to bear, her reason as always, she was mine and I was hers, and a shrug of her little shoulders said it all, and a hug filled with tears eased our pain away.

I dont really know why Im writing this, part of me wishing that somehow she can read this, how stupid is that, and somehow she knows that I have never forgotten her or all the things she did for me. that somehow her loss will start to fade,and the hollowness that left my heart the day she left the world will somehow, be less painful. that somehow she will forgive me for not being there to help her, or for not keeping the pact we made as kids, that we would be together forever.

My sis, my darling sis, May the angels celebrate your birthday with you as I celebrate the person and your life we shared together alone. I love you .xxx

I miss my sis so very much and long for the day that our pact can be fulfilled, and as I try to smile the day away, the tears fall as if its the end of the world.

[malign]

Thank you for telling us about her, Sue.
I know she knows how you feel about her.

[Donna]

Sue, i dont really know what to say and im sure that whatever i did say would make you feel no different, i just wanted to acknowledge you in some way and say i am thinking of you.
I hope you get through this day and think of the love you both share.


Take care of yourself.

[GingerSnap]

Sue: As I have said before, I feel that the spirits of those people that have crossed to the other side are still with us. I think I may have told this story before but when we were at an RV park, I came across a couple who had some neat lighthouse stuff and I made a comment about it and they told me that they had lost a daughter at a young age that loved lighthouses and it was her dream to travel the US and see different ones and they said that they were now fulfilling her dream for her and that it made them feel closer to her. I think you know that she is still with you and definitely lives on in your heart that you were able to make this post today. She is there pulling for you and that often she touches your heart when you need it the most. You have my sympathy. Cathy

[SweetSue]

thanks for all the comments :)

[IrmaJean]

I'm sorry for your loss, JJ. I never had a sister. You had a very special relationship with her from what you have described. I believe that those who we have loved during our lives stay with us in many ways even after their passing from this life. The love you feel for your sis will always be in your heart. Take care, Sue.

Beth

[notmary]

I am thinking of you and your sister. I am very sorry for your loss. Time doesn't erase the pain, hopefully though it allows you some peace and comfort. Thank you for telling us about her.