Megan
08-05-2008, 10:25 PM
Hello, I just joined. Right now I am feeling overwhelmed and have so much to talk about but it is getting late.
I am 48 years old. I have PTSD and have had major unipolar depression since I was a kid. But my pdoc says I am bipolar now, since sometime last year. I really don't know for sure. I have to understand it for myself.
My PTSD has to do with a death in the family that happened when I was 10, but that was only just a symptom of the real problem. My father is the real problem. I realized recently that interacting with my family especially with my dad, affects my interpersonal communications with others. So I am trying to separate from my dad. I can't take it anymore. Also I feel a lot of danger right now, with my dad and my brother. Every day feels like a new trauma.
I had a really good session with my therapist on Monday only to go home and find out I probably have diabetes. My fasting plasma glucose test was 130. I had to get more tests today. Yesterday after I found out I did some research. My sister called. I told her I probably have diabetes and explained why. She told me the lab was wrong about the healthy range the FPG was supposed to be. I told her I checked NIH and american diabetes association and they said the same thing. She got angry and told me no, they were wrong. She sat there and yelled at me and hung up on me.
I've experienced some rejection online from some people lately and feel really bad.
So as you can see I feel pretty beat up right now. Sorry so long. Thanks for listening. :o
I am 48 years old. I have PTSD and have had major unipolar depression since I was a kid. But my pdoc says I am bipolar now, since sometime last year. I really don't know for sure. I have to understand it for myself.
My PTSD has to do with a death in the family that happened when I was 10, but that was only just a symptom of the real problem. My father is the real problem. I realized recently that interacting with my family especially with my dad, affects my interpersonal communications with others. So I am trying to separate from my dad. I can't take it anymore. Also I feel a lot of danger right now, with my dad and my brother. Every day feels like a new trauma.
I had a really good session with my therapist on Monday only to go home and find out I probably have diabetes. My fasting plasma glucose test was 130. I had to get more tests today. Yesterday after I found out I did some research. My sister called. I told her I probably have diabetes and explained why. She told me the lab was wrong about the healthy range the FPG was supposed to be. I told her I checked NIH and american diabetes association and they said the same thing. She got angry and told me no, they were wrong. She sat there and yelled at me and hung up on me.
I've experienced some rejection online from some people lately and feel really bad.
So as you can see I feel pretty beat up right now. Sorry so long. Thanks for listening. :o