LiQuidDreamer
03-16-2008, 04:01 PM
Hi everyone. I was searching the internet for some answers to some problems I have had with mental health. I have done this for over a year now and have not had any luck finding anything, but this time I tried some different keywords in my search and I found this board and it seems pretty much in line with what I have been going through, so I have decided to try my luck and register here at this message board.
My name is David and I have had some issues with phycosis in my life, specifically in the last two years.
It all started early in the new year, in January 2006, where I actually thought I could hear voices in my head.
I also actually believed that I could communicate with my my friends and acquaintances telepathically.
I was really getting out of touch with reality and starting to see and imagine life in a very strange way.
I told my parents and family about this on the first Saturday night in 2006, and not knowing what to do or think, they called the police. The police decided that I had to go the Behavorial Health at the local regional hospital, so the police escorted me, my Dad and my sister to the hospital.
I was in the hospital for 3 days while they had my under observation.
Since this time I have been taking risperdal, from January 2006, and am on it to this very day.
The risperdal seemed to help and for the rest of the year I have not had any problems with phycosis like I did, and I no longer believe that I could hear voices in my head or that I could communicate telepathically with anyone.
I was doing fine in 2006 and I got a new job and I was doing okay, trying to build my life back together.
But in March, 2007, my grandfather died. I liked him a lot.
Then I started having physcotic episodes again. I started believing that I could see things that I knew in the back of my mind weren't there and it got pretty bad and once again my parents decided it was best to take my back to the Behavorial Health Clinic.
I was there again for another 3 days, and this time in addition to risperdal they gave me Seroquel to take.
I don't know if my grandfather's death had anything to do with this.
Then, the next, my other grandfater, on my Mom's side, died.
While we were making plans with the family for a second funeral, I went into another physcotic episode. This time I believed that I was pregnant and was going to have a baby and my Mom decided I had to go back to Behavorial Health. My sister and my best friend went with me and admitted me. That was certainly a very surreal experience.
From somewhere in the back of my mind I knew I wasn't really pregnant but that did not stop me from telling my friend and my family.
I was in BH for another 3 days.
The whole time I was in BH was very surreal and didn't seem like it happened and I just felt very weird and very out of touch with reality.
I had to miss my second grandfather's funeral because I was in BH.
In June of 2007 I got fired from my job and have been out of work ever since. It was because my supervisor did not like me and she was very strict and fired me because we had a big potluck where everyone brought something, but because of my work, I could not sit in with the rest of the team and I had to get back to work. My supervisor was upset because I did not want to socialize with the rest of the team, which was not true, because I like to socialize with people, but the nature of my work had a deadline on it to be done at a certain time so I had to finish my work and put that as a priority.
Currently I am still unemployed and that has not helped me out any because I am constantly on high anxiety and I am wondering how I am going to support myself. I wonder how I am going to make the payments and keep my car, and keep my cell phone.
I still feel that I can hold down a job if I am lucky enough to find one, and I hope to find one where there is a reasonable supervisor.
Luckily I have been able to keep my problems with my phycosis confidential, and the whole time I was in BH the last two times, no one at work knew about it.
I would like to see if anyone could comment on my situation. Does it sound like I need disability, or should I try to get another job.
I currently am getting Outpatient Mental Health Services, and I see them once every couple of months.
I just had an appointment with the doctor just last Friday.
Since my BH experiences last May of 2007, I have not had any other kind of phsycotic experiences. I have not heard any voices, or believed anything outlandish or outrageous since then.
I would like to say that I feel better now but I have to constantly keep myself on vigil, and I have make sure that I am can still tell reality from all the crazy things I have been thinking.
Right now the doctor has given me Risperdal again so I am still taking that.
In November the doctor took me off the Seroquel.
As I told the doctor at my appointment the only thing I feel right now is some depression and a lot of high anxiety about trying to pay my bills.
Currently I live at home with my family. I am very lucky to have them in my life to take care of me and I know they love me and I love them too.
I just am concerned about how things are going to turn out and I would like some opinions if anyone else has went through anything like this, or what I should do next.
Thank you! :)
LiQuidDreamer
My name is David and I have had some issues with phycosis in my life, specifically in the last two years.
It all started early in the new year, in January 2006, where I actually thought I could hear voices in my head.
I also actually believed that I could communicate with my my friends and acquaintances telepathically.
I was really getting out of touch with reality and starting to see and imagine life in a very strange way.
I told my parents and family about this on the first Saturday night in 2006, and not knowing what to do or think, they called the police. The police decided that I had to go the Behavorial Health at the local regional hospital, so the police escorted me, my Dad and my sister to the hospital.
I was in the hospital for 3 days while they had my under observation.
Since this time I have been taking risperdal, from January 2006, and am on it to this very day.
The risperdal seemed to help and for the rest of the year I have not had any problems with phycosis like I did, and I no longer believe that I could hear voices in my head or that I could communicate telepathically with anyone.
I was doing fine in 2006 and I got a new job and I was doing okay, trying to build my life back together.
But in March, 2007, my grandfather died. I liked him a lot.
Then I started having physcotic episodes again. I started believing that I could see things that I knew in the back of my mind weren't there and it got pretty bad and once again my parents decided it was best to take my back to the Behavorial Health Clinic.
I was there again for another 3 days, and this time in addition to risperdal they gave me Seroquel to take.
I don't know if my grandfather's death had anything to do with this.
Then, the next, my other grandfater, on my Mom's side, died.
While we were making plans with the family for a second funeral, I went into another physcotic episode. This time I believed that I was pregnant and was going to have a baby and my Mom decided I had to go back to Behavorial Health. My sister and my best friend went with me and admitted me. That was certainly a very surreal experience.
From somewhere in the back of my mind I knew I wasn't really pregnant but that did not stop me from telling my friend and my family.
I was in BH for another 3 days.
The whole time I was in BH was very surreal and didn't seem like it happened and I just felt very weird and very out of touch with reality.
I had to miss my second grandfather's funeral because I was in BH.
In June of 2007 I got fired from my job and have been out of work ever since. It was because my supervisor did not like me and she was very strict and fired me because we had a big potluck where everyone brought something, but because of my work, I could not sit in with the rest of the team and I had to get back to work. My supervisor was upset because I did not want to socialize with the rest of the team, which was not true, because I like to socialize with people, but the nature of my work had a deadline on it to be done at a certain time so I had to finish my work and put that as a priority.
Currently I am still unemployed and that has not helped me out any because I am constantly on high anxiety and I am wondering how I am going to support myself. I wonder how I am going to make the payments and keep my car, and keep my cell phone.
I still feel that I can hold down a job if I am lucky enough to find one, and I hope to find one where there is a reasonable supervisor.
Luckily I have been able to keep my problems with my phycosis confidential, and the whole time I was in BH the last two times, no one at work knew about it.
I would like to see if anyone could comment on my situation. Does it sound like I need disability, or should I try to get another job.
I currently am getting Outpatient Mental Health Services, and I see them once every couple of months.
I just had an appointment with the doctor just last Friday.
Since my BH experiences last May of 2007, I have not had any other kind of phsycotic experiences. I have not heard any voices, or believed anything outlandish or outrageous since then.
I would like to say that I feel better now but I have to constantly keep myself on vigil, and I have make sure that I am can still tell reality from all the crazy things I have been thinking.
Right now the doctor has given me Risperdal again so I am still taking that.
In November the doctor took me off the Seroquel.
As I told the doctor at my appointment the only thing I feel right now is some depression and a lot of high anxiety about trying to pay my bills.
Currently I live at home with my family. I am very lucky to have them in my life to take care of me and I know they love me and I love them too.
I just am concerned about how things are going to turn out and I would like some opinions if anyone else has went through anything like this, or what I should do next.
Thank you! :)
LiQuidDreamer